LaTisha’s Answer: I need to forgive myself for all of the times that my actions and my beliefs have not lined up.
The truth of the matter is that it doesn’t matter what’s going on or how anyone else in my life is behaving -- I am always in control of my thoughts and actions. Five year old logic such as, “Well, he/she did this and that’s why I’m behaving the way I am” simply doesn’t fly.
If I’m going to walk my talk, I have to own up to the fact that there’s no excuse for letting my temper get the best of me. I also have to let go of the past in order to create a new way of being.
At my worst, I am hateful, judgmental, critical, and verbally abusive. I could probably give Regina George a run for her money. It’s not easy for me to admit this. The thought of people seeing how I’ve treated my loved ones in the past makes me cringe with shame. I’ve given more consideration and compassion to people I hardly know than to those that I love the most.
As much as I hate to acknowledge this ugly part of me, I realize that I have a very observant daughter who is watching my every move. The words I speak to her and to others around her will help to form her inner voice and shape the way she views and interacts with the world. She makes me want to stay in the light and be my best self because she deserves that kind of person as her mom.
I’ve gotten a lot better with regaining control over myself over the years AND it will be something I will work on for the rest of my life. In order to really do this, I’ve got to forgive myself, get back up, and start all over again each and every time I fall.
Now it’s your turn. Comment below and let me know who you need to forgive.
I’m cheering for you. Like it’s the start of a new day.